Dread

Heyyyyyy.
Started work last week and I don’t know why but I just don’t really like the environment there.
The people… They’re so fake? I can’t put a finger on it, I just don’t know how to explain.
& on the first day of work, I have to face customers without any training at all.
I have to work the cash register, serve customers, handle cake orders etc when I’m clueless wtf
I screwed up the cash register so many times on the first day and received complaints as well.
How do they expect me to perform well when they didn’t even provide any training in the first place!!?!?!?
BR is not just about scooping ice-cream, fyi. I hate it when I explain the job to people and they’ll be like,
“Huh, scoop ice-cream only, so tough meh?”
Ha, if you’re so capable, why not you try to do it.
And just because I’m a newbie, they kind of treat me like a slave?
Idk if I should just resign and work with CE all the way, since it’s more flexible.
But I don’t want the colleagues to say that I’m a weakling, I don’t want to be looked down on.
Everyday when I’m otw to work, there’ll be a knot at the pit of my stomach and it’s like I’m gna vomit on the train
DREAD.DREAD.DREAD.DREAD.DREAD.
Yes, the job can be fun at times, but serving customers when I have no knowledge at all.. It sucks.
I hope as time goes by, I can get better at it so that I won’t have to rely on my colleagues anymore.

On a lighter note, I can’t wait for school to start. Even though I don’t know which school I’ll be going to,
I’m ready for a new environment and a new change to my life.
I must move on, since you’ve already moved on without me.